Back before I started blogging, I used to be so self-conscious. I used to hate posing for photos in public, I never used to wear any revealing outfits, and I used to sneakily take photos of my coffee because I didn’t want to attract attention to myself. Now, 10 months later, it’s like I’m a different person. The sense of purpose and direction that comes with having a blog has given me the confidence to draw attention. In a sense, it’s like a job. That’s how blogging has helped me overcome my inhibitions and do things I never would have done before.
When I started blogging, at first I took photos in my garden. Then, quiet backstreets. Jump to now: I happily pose on the bustling streets of London, outside people’s houses (only with their permission, of course). I used to cringe at people walking past, used to blush at catcalls from drivers. Now, with the knowledge that I have a job to do – to get killer photos to make my blog the best it can be – I block them all out. I focus. I don’t know these people.
In the end, the only thing that matters from shoots is how the photos turn out, and they will only look their best if I’m giving 110%. If I’m doing the poses that will look best for photos, rather than worrying what the people walking past on the street are thinking. That might include a sassy leg out, a hip pop, a hair flip. Sometimes the poses are downright uncomfortable, to be honest. But I concentrate on doing my best, thinking constantly if I’m showing off my look the best I can.
Another way how blogging has helped me overcome my inhibitions is in the actual clothing I wear. The other day, I happily strutted around Central London in a bralette and heels. And this skirt, for example, is something I wouldn’t have dreamed of shooting a year ago. I would’ve been constantly tugging on it, worrying about the wind blowing it up. Yet last week, I wore it on the tube with pride, knowing that I was slaying. And, when I’m out in restaurants or cafes now, I will whack my DSLR out and stand up for about 10 minutes to get a flatlay of my food, taking hundreds of photos until I finally get the perfect shot. Because that’s far more important than the opinions of people I don’t even know.
So, to my surprise, blogging has taught me more than anything else to screw what anyone else thinks. The only person whose opinion matters is you. And to all the people who gawk on the street when I’m doing a ‘shoot: bye, Felicia, I’ve got a job to do.
Shop: How Blogging Has Helped Me Overcome My Inhibitions
Top: Topshop (isn’t it a cute Gucci dupe?!)
White bag: Zara
Red bag: Love Moschino
Watch: Abbott Lyon
Photos are by the wonderful Shelley xoxo